Ron Station

Shifted once again

2005-07-25T00:02:00.000+08:00

New Address: ronwjlee.blogspot.com

A "Jeslyn" Song

2005-06-17T00:53:00.000+08:00

Everytime i look out the window
I can feel the trace of your presence
Its nothing like I ever felt before

Its all because of you i'm here
You taught me how to love
You changed my life liked the way you made me smile

Chorus:

From then on things were never the same
I felt different top to down
Its you its you
I long to see in my life

But i knew all these moments
Weren't gonna last forever
It was doomed to fail
Like how i looked without you

Where are you
Where are you
Oh my Jeslyn

Back to blogging

2005-06-16T00:37:00.000+08:00

Haha! Finally i'm back to blog an entry. After a month of absence(busy+forget), here i am back to this little place. The month of May and June has been exciting. I have been officially in-charge of TP2 for a month now and i had some difficulty handling the people at first. Good frens/buddy like Cecil and such a knowlegaeble brother in the form of Han Yew, it felt awkward.

Have to buck up because my word is not that strong at all due to past laziness and boredom to look through numerous stream of texts. However, one thing i always felt about a leader is someone who is both a friend and guardian to the people. I want to be someone whom people follow not because of authority given to me but because of the love that i exemplify to other people. It can be done.

Many are always barred by heirarchies in church and this church is no different. People tend to think that if you are a leader, you must be special or you are the cream of the crop. This make people strive for the status instead of closeness to God. This is probably a downfall for many people. A leader might possess some qualities that others don't but if doesn't mean that they are the best. God created each and everyone of use uniquely. Some are cut out to be leaders and some are not but there are also other things which a leader can't do or aren't as good as others.

One example would be a project group. The leader might not be as knowlaegable as one member who contributes alot of ideas to the project. But that doesn't mean he's weaker than that member. Everyone has different roles. The leader might not match up in terms of knowledge but he is able to inspire others to acheive goals which is essential. Similarly in church, its not the leader or anyone that is best. We all have a part to play and no part is greater than the other. Leaders are just people whom God caught to guide others. So don't feel sad or jealous if you are not a leader. Aspire to be one but know that everything is in God's plan as well.

To end things off, i feel that God has blessed me with a good project group this sem. Last sem, i found it hard to relate to my group members. They were A-calibur students whom were too much off myself personality wise(i'm not the chiong project type). Even when i tried so hard, things didn't work out well. But thank God. God blessed me with a weak project group this sem. Weak in a sense that it allows me to shine among them this time. Not saying that they are lousy but i have an opportunity to expound my ideas and takes things at a more relaxing pace.

ESS is coming this week! Aiming for 3 non-bs to come. Are you excited?

2005-05-28T00:47:00.000+08:00

will *update* soon...this blog is still alive.

2005-05-11T02:06:00.000+08:00

The new structure is out.

Hereby announce the 2nd squad members:

Cecil
Hanyew
Zhenming
Yangzhou
Jeremy
Robin

I may not be covenanted to some of you but i will pledge all i have to this group. Really hope that you guys strive to see ppl cross the line as well. Really happy to have you guys serving together with me! Let's bear with each other's weaknesses and thrive on our potentials.

2005-05-10T00:32:00.000+08:00

Perhaps this wasn't that big of a surprise compared to another fellow sister's progression. I'm not like gideon in the first place, someone who turned from a cowardly/self-condemned person to an unlikely hero. Most knew i was gonna be one to assume the role of leadership in the first place and that makes things even more difficult. Living up to others expectations came to my mind. Its stressing when people have high expectations of you.

But after thinking through, i realised that i shouldn't be doing what i'm doing to live up to ppl's expectations. What i'm doing i'm doing it for God and not man to see. Hence, all this pressure doesn't seem neccessary to succumb to.

May i not be someone who only exuberates charisma and nothing deep but be someone who inspires others to perspire to see ppl crossing the line. Seeing the potential and not weakness in everyone is something i learnt today from nel's teaching.

The week ahead is gonna be exciting. New cg members joining TP2. Whoever it is, gonna welcome them with love. However, i will miss the guys leaving TP2 as well. haha seeya!

Back from camp!

2005-05-03T23:57:00.000+08:00

"i gotta do wat i gotta do". A simple sentence which changes my life somewhat.

TP2

me
jon lee
jon liu
cecil
qingcai
zhenming
gabriel
jeremy

I lov u guys. i seek to inspire you guys to perspire as well!

Can see that everyone's motivated after camp but the thing is not to rely on camps or services to inspire/motivate us. It somehow becomes a routine after quite some time. We should be constantly be motivated by God by refreshing ourselves each day to face new challenges.

will update more soon.

"Creating Something Out of Nothing"

2005-04-27T01:17:00.000+08:00

haha...so happy man. Got lots of things to share but just can't write out. God is simply amazing and can't be described by words alone. From a mere 3 ppl who are going for camp, God has increased that number to 5! God has annointed me and nel to speak to the people. It was so strong that even the unexpected happened! wow...

The days leading up to camp will be a tough one...evax, rehearsal, cg,nt survey, sowing. The path of leadership is lonely but filled with rewards aplenty. amen. Set your camp objective now if you haven!

2005-04-25T01:41:00.000+08:00

Din't expect sunday to be a packed day as well. Went to my sheep's house in the morning to sherperd him. ha. the funny thing was he couldn't wake up and i had to knock his house door for an hour until my knuckles cracked. Then suddenly someone opened the door and it was none other than his sister! lol. pai seh sia...haha.

After sherperding went home to rest abit then head out to meet kc. Had an "expensive" tono ramen meal but had a good chat with him. Wish him the best when he heads to the adult group. haha...bro, you surely can be a cl in yr lifetime. Persevere on to the very end.

On the way home, saw michy on the bus but i din't say hi or talked to her. Flee from temptation. haha...dun want to get tempted to flirt with her like last time although sometimes her exotic chinese looks and cute eyes attracts me. lol. Better to look away.

Tml will be an exciting day. Get to eat free sushi, join dmm and celebrate nel's 22nd bday with the other TP aces!

Mini-update

2005-04-23T02:54:00.000+08:00

haha...been quite busy this week. Got lots of stuff to settle as usual but i shall never treat it as a routine but a refreshing experience each day. Today was abit crazy. Joined a contact for lan gaming...yea. sounds nice but it was hell. Imagine staring at the computer for 7 hours straight. Not me but my contact...haha. The most i could take was 3 hours.

Well, feel pretty tired now but the weight of ministry piles up once again. CG was really horrendus...only 3 ppl thanks to some "aeroplane-flyers" and "job freaks". hmm...nvrmd. Its over anyway.

Time to sleep liao...service tml. Excited!

2005-04-16T00:32:00.000+08:00

Today was a crazy day...typical chiong! Haha...eh...fellowship and outreach. Morning played basketball and soccer with TP1 ppl...moi cg din show up save for me. haha...but we did have a fun time. Feel so energetic and really to inspire anytime!

After that went to watch movie with Don, Frances, Sean and Serene. "Creep" is da name. eh...its sux. Especially when the horror movie industry is so competitive nowadays...need to be innovative. It trys to be but eh...it becomes more like a killing festivity. The death scenes are cool. If you like blood and gore, this is the show for you.

After that went to play pool. Hmm...did not want to show off moi improved skills but no choice lah...haha. trashed the folks big time. Of course, got objective. Invited them over for service during dinner time.

hmm...tml will be exciting. Church Anniversary 2005! It also marks the first full year that i'm serving in Hope Singapore. haha...it shall be extended to eternity! Rock on khakis!

2005-04-14T01:59:00.000+08:00

Today was strange man...the first half of the day seemed pretty free to me until abt 4.30pm i realised i haven booked a room for this saturday's tp campaign launch! Lol...actually supposed to book on monday but forgot. haha...when i called reception, the gal told me that have to book at least 5 days in advance. Pengzz...but thank god the sweetie told me that i was in luck that no one will be using it. She even sent me a booking form with a buttload of policies which i din even bother to read.

When i thght everything was over, suddenly, stuff popped up. Sheep problems, camp stuff, cg stuff...haha. But its always great to serve God. How i wish i'll be given more task to do...haha. Glad to be at the aces of aces even though i'm not that skilled nor word-based. Thank god for giving me so many opportunities to learn...i'll need it man.

2005-04-08T00:58:00.000+08:00

Last Eps of "Journey to the Bus-stop"

Haiz...what a tragic ending after a 45 mins walk to the bus-stop at Lim Chu Kang campsite. Left behind by our fellow khakis to die. Don and Jon, may peace be with you...may peace be with err...me too.

2005-04-07T00:26:00.000+08:00

God never fails to put problems into my life as i grow in him...and it has never been much to this extent. Financial and health problems are cropping up. I'm no longer the rich kid on the block. I have to learn how to scrimp now...no more games, exhorbitant treats and needless mags. Every cent counts. Will take some time to adapt to this "new" life of mine after living in luxury for the past decade or so. However, through this...i'm sure i'll mature.

Gonna pick up either guitar or keyboard pretty soon...it helps me fellowship with God easier. Somehow, i can't fellowship with God properly without such wonderful equipment. Must keep myself healthy if not i can't survive in the long-term.

Thank God TP got some pro guitarists and i know a friend of mine who is pro...haha.
Pro+Pro+Teach me= i pro! lol. hmm...

2005-04-03T18:22:00.000+08:00

Today was inspired by what jasmine said:

1) Setting Goals

2) Having intimate friendships

3) Our vision

Have to revaluate myself. Why i'm here serving. Do i continue to serve because i happen to be one who is more committed than others? Respond to God's calling. Have a vision to guide your path and it shall never be weak. Another point to ponder would be do i work as a team with my fellow bros or am i doing everything myself. With teamwork, you can acheive anything.

After that went to play soccer with some cool ppl man. Collin, Kehan, Lennon , Sam, Donald, Donnie, Gerrach(sorry if i spell wrongly) and Leslie. Such cool ppl. Learn some stuff from them and the way they communiciate. I used to dislike hanging around with leaders last time becuz i was afraid that i would bullshit nonsensical stuff. But it seems that they are fun ppl too, knowing when to be serious and comical at the same time. Got all wet and sweaty...so long never enjoy myself le.

Looking forward to the new week ahead. Fellowship, follow-up, sherperding, maturity cg, ctm and even more meetings. By this week, i also hope to clear some stuff out. Some things just shouldn't be dragged for such a long time. Pluck up some courage yea?

2005-04-03T10:34:00.000+08:00

wooh...later going to city hall to meet some of the np aces kehan, colin and also sam with donald to settle some stuff. I mean receive impartation from Sam. Too bad Jeremy's not going. After that dunnoe whether want to go for soccer anot cuz i may have to go back to prepare teaching. Soccer will lead me to tiredness and fatigue. Man actually i dislike mixing around with the leaders cuz although i am able to learn much from them, i dun want to feel superior after that in front of my own khakis. I still prefer hanging out with ppl that are in need so that i am able to help them. All give and no take? Well, thats not it. Some younger ppl can also provide some reality advice. Personally thats what i think but my sherperd thinks opposite. ha...well, different thinking man. He hangs out with the leaders and i hang out with my khakis-in-christ.

Awkward...i dunnoe why but i suddenly burst out my secret to a bro-in-christ on the way home yesterday!haha...nvrmd. I've been feeling bad down there keeping it inside my heart. May God provide the way for me. pluck up some courage ok?

Big Brother

2005-03-31T00:00:00.000+08:00

Haha...its time for me to assume the role of "da-ge" liao! When i first started serving TP ministry, i was like a little kid with everyone feeding me with stuff and guiding me along. It was great to always be served by others! But now its my turn to serve the new people in christ. I'm not young any longer but not old either. Haha...i never would have imagined that i could take such a role but well, God is a surprising God! The newly transferred are fun-loving though they come with their own problems as well. Time to put my experience to good use yea. Everyone matters to god.

2005-03-29T23:36:00.000+08:00

This week's cg will be a combined outing between TP1 and TP2 even though we have officially split since last week. Movie marathon at Bedok (err...low-class sits) or Tamp GV (not again...)? Whatever the case, hope to see the new believers coming! The importance of fellowship should never be undermined.

Really impressed by Abel and Cecil. This 2 bros have really grew alot more sensible and God has thus honoured them. They are sherperds now! Man, God can work in anyone as long as you perservere. Its never bad too to have a change of lifestyle as long as it stays true to the biblical roots.

My greatest wish now is to breakaway from the reins of TP2. Its been a long time in there for me. Training after training, the next step would be to apply everything that i have learned. I want to lead a cg of my own. Seeing that things in TP2 are quite settled and the guys are growing, its safe to say that TP7 is within sight. Or should i say that all along TP7 was within my reach all along? Just that i never felt the flame within me to grab hold of it.

Nothing is impossible. Its only impossible if you keep thinking of the negativities. I seek not to be just a hero...but one with a courageous heart! Rock on bros & sis!

2005-03-29T07:33:00.000+08:00

I tear for this world
The people are foolish, tempt themselves with corruption
I look at myself in the mirror and laugh, i'm no better

I tear for this world
For i am unable to change it
I'm limited to my pair of hands
Amidst rife and chaos, innocent lives are lost

Lord i kneel down to you with faith and affliction
Annoint me as the mandate that will transform this world
into something pure, perfect in you.

My death may be unknown to me
but i yearn to change this world for as long as you allow me...