Perhaps this wasn't that big of a surprise compared to another fellow sister's progression. I'm not like gideon in the first place, someone who turned from a cowardly/self-condemned person to an unlikely hero. Most knew i was gonna be one to assume the role of leadership in the first place and that makes things even more difficult. Living up to others expectations came to my mind. Its stressing when people have high expectations of you.

But after thinking through, i realised that i shouldn't be doing what i'm doing to live up to ppl's expectations. What i'm doing i'm doing it for God and not man to see. Hence, all this pressure doesn't seem neccessary to succumb to.

May i not be someone who only exuberates charisma and nothing deep but be someone who inspires others to perspire to see ppl crossing the line. Seeing the potential and not weakness in everyone is something i learnt today from nel's teaching.

The week ahead is gonna be exciting. New cg members joining TP2. Whoever it is, gonna welcome them with love. However, i will miss the guys leaving TP2 as well. haha seeya!